Vintage Butterfly

vintage butterfly

Aaaahh new papers – you can’t get to them quick enough to start creating 🙂



Pure Joy – Despite…

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I have had a really lovely Good Friday. The weather was absolutely gorgeous for our annual Good Friday picnic in which I get together with my beautiful cousin, her partner and my very good friends and our kids. One year we went to the Botanical Gardens which is in the heart of Brisbane but the last 2 years it has been organised by my friend Kassy and very close to where I live as driving is a problem for me. I drive short distances around home mainly but of course with the different tablets I take for pain some days I am unable to drive. The poor car sits in the garage more than gets driven…and when it comes around to pay the registration I curse it for the days that it sits there.

The weather was a beautiful warm (but not “stinking hot”) we had a great picnic table under a big tree with a great playground for my friends Kassy and Jame’s 2 young gorgeous sons. A lovely picnic lunch and a chance to catch up with the friends I don’t see so often these days. It’s crazy when you now have all the time in the world that you can’t carry out all the things you said you would do when you no longer worked..I was only saying today I imagined that I would raise Guide Dog Puppies or Foster dogs until they had a home. I also said I would learn floristry – perhaps this may be something that I can achieve, not so much on the puppies though.

After a year and a half of living this disabled life, I have really struggled with feeling joy. Real joy. I practice “Mindfulness” every day as much as I can and a big part of Mindfulness is being exactly in the present and using all of your senses to be present fully. I always stop and enjoy my dog’s moment when we play ball for 10 minutes or so. I try to pull myself back to the moment, watch the pure joy that Domino is feeling because for him, life does not get better than “ball”(as you may have seen in my earlier post on Happiness). During “ball” I really try and stay connected with Dom and enjoy his joy and I do. I also feel Happiness when I am spending time with Jake and he is doing something crazy to make me laugh. I am not a morose mess of depression. I laugh and act as I did before to some degree and I think to strangers they would never know the difference. In the days I spend alone I am still busy with exercising, stretches, meditation, making cards, spending 4 hours to prepare a meal and I do have moments of joy. This new life means that I have to try extra hard to “blow up” the joy I might have – it’s hard work and elusive.

The breakthrough came last week in which I had showered myself and it was painful, and I put my tens machine and was driving to a friends scapbooking store to have a look around. I did have some money to spend (something that I have not had for a year and a half) and on my way there I was feeling Happiness. I wasn’t trying hard – it was a great feeling. It did last a few hours, I spent some money which in turn I will make cards out of which will also give me joy. Pure joy that for a small amount of time I had achieved what I had been so tightly trying to grasp. I was living “Along Side” of my pain. I was feeling pure joy – despite.

So that’s what it is and I have now met people through a Chronic Pain Support Group I have just started going to that appear to have built a new life – despite.

Maybe I have found the role models I have been desperately looking for 🙂


I really love this story written by Jen, her partner has CRPS and this gives a fresh look on how tough this illness is for our loved ones.

Living Life Beyond Disability

I’m Jen, Jamie’s wife… He asked me to do a blog for him quite a while ago, so that I could relate a different perspective to his conditions, what it is like to live with someone with such debilitating illnesses but I was very reluctant to share my experiences. I didn’t want to write about us, and to be perfectly honest, I find it incredibly difficult to read his blogs sometimes because I live it and re-reading how he feels is more than difficult, its almost intolerable because I see it and live it every day. I don’t mind him writing the blogs, I like that he has an outlet, that he has a way to express himself and to spread awareness about what he has to live through. I admire his honesty, and for putting himself out there because society, and the people that he puts himself out there…

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Vintage Girl

girl vintage1I had so much fun with this card, I probably played with it for about 3hours but I am happy with it and it brings me joy while I am doing it which is the most important thing with Chronic Pain “Have some Fun Time”


Very Inspiring Blogger and Versatile Blogger Awards

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I am so very sorry I have been unwell for just over a week and hardly on the computer to be able to thank 3 wonderful bloggers for the awards they have nominated me for.

Yay yay yay! My 2nd and 3rd Very Inspiring Blogger award – thank you very much Shaun at who writes about his very real feelings but has a fabulous sense of humour to boot! Patrick at Perspectives writes a really well written blog about life with his father and Dementia. A very real and honest blog.

I have also been nominated for the Versatile Blogger Award 2013 by Thanks so much Christina again very much appreciated. I really loved reading the facts about you and that you make your bed rain, hail or shine no matter sick you are…that really is amazing!

For me to be such a “Light Weight” (newbie) in a very big pond it really is such a wonderful feeling to think that I have a platform to share my story good bad and ugly in hopes that we can all draw from each other in times of need.

The rules of accepting this award are as below:

1. Display the award logo on your blog.
2. Link back to the person who nominated you.
3. State 7 things about yourself.
4. Nominate 15 other bloggers for this award and link to them.
5. Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements.

Seven things about myself

1. In Grade 2 I used to pretend I was “The Fonz” despite being a girl. I remember walking into my classroom with the swagger and “EEEEEHHHHHH” all my friends on the way to my seat. LOL!

2. I am now the proud owner of a Nana Trolley much to one of my closest friends disgust. I bought it to help me carry my gear to the Hydrotherapy pool but think I may have found many uses including perhaps shopping with that very friend with it.

3. As a teenager my life revolved around roller skating, I loved it and also dream some nights that I still can.

4. Before my son was born we had settled on the name Melina if he was a girl until a girlfriend who was a nurse told us the “Melina” was a term they used for a sticky black pooh.

5. I have smelly candles burning in the house most days and believe that it improves my mood having such a wonderful scent in the house.

6. Music makes my world go around. I own over 600 CD’s and can still find days where there is nothing I want to listen to.

7. My favourite colour is purple.

3. My dog Domino our Beagle Border Collie Cross is a very much loved family member.

I would like to nominate the below Very Inspiring Bloggers for this award for such wonderful writings and the brave choice to write as some of them do.

1. Patrick Walker’s very brave blog about life with his Dad and his Dementia.

2. Robyn Lee and a really inspirational blog, please read her “About” page.

3. Wonderful photos. I just love great photography, I find it beautifully uplifting.

4. Truly beautiful photography – lovely work Cindy

5. Again being able to capture such beauty through the lens

6. what a wonderful way to start the day.

7. Beating Depression with Humour.


Inspirational Story by Janine Shepherd

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I really wanted to share this absolutely inspirational story by former Australian Olympian Janine Shepherd and the adversities she has faced. I just got so much from her story on Ted TV – Janine Shepherd “A broken body isn’t a broken person”. Completely inspirational and told in such a really interesting way, I can’t share this enough. I hope you enjoy….



The human spiri…

The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it. ~C.C. Scott


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